my son has been staying with his grandparents because I don't want him in the situation that my…

my son has been staying with his grandparents because I don't want him in the situation that my boyfriend and I are in. we are jobless and can't provide. I sit up all night going through my phone looking at his pictures and videos and just cry. I miss my baby so much. I'm at the point now that I rather struggle and be able to see his face and still be happy then struggle and hurt.