I sure would like to know if I'm dilated any 😩 they won't check me since I'm not having contractions…

I sure would like to know if I'm dilated any 😩 they won't check me since I'm not having contractions yet and don't want to risk infection until they talk to my doctor in the morning they want to let her decide 😳🤔 I should be sleep right now who knows how fast things could or couldn't progress this is fast already to me... I can't believe I'm going to have a baby in literally a day or so can't be to much longer this is much earlier than expected .. Frankly I still need to buy my car seat and stroller o guess my stepmom will have to get it omg 😳😫😫 okay I'm going to relax and get some sleep hopefully before it starts getting real ... I'm just so anxious