Well guys my newborn baby boy's nurse came into talk to me about his status.. She's more than positive he had pneumonia. I got to hold him once for a good 30 mins or so. He's hooked up to this oxygen thing @ has catheter tubs going through his belly button to his heart for antibiotics. I won't be able to hold him.. Nurse him.. Or take him home.. It could be a whole week.. I'm so sad I feel like it's my fault.. I had to have a c section because I wasn't dilating and my cervix was swollen.. I had a fever & a high white blood cell count.. Urgh I can't even sleep now 😓 broken