I can't no tell no one in my family how I feel. they won't understand. I know my daughter is safe and loved with her family and adoption was the best thing for her. but I feel like i failed at mother to her and my kid's. I can't even be a good mother and keep her with her. I've been slowing slipping into a depression with the adoption was finalized. I feel like I don't deserve to be happy. I feel happy just a little then I feel bad, for being happy without her. i can't hid I how I feel truly anymore.