I just feel so lonely tonight... I just want to talk and cuddle with my fiance.. but he's asleep.. I…

I just feel so lonely tonight... I just want to talk and cuddle with my fiance.. but he's asleep.. I know I could just wake him up, but he's got to work in the morning.. idk... the closer I get to having my princess the more depressed and upset and impatient I get... I feel like everything keeps falling apart the closer it gets to her being here, but I want her here so bad... I'm ready to meet her.. and then I'm ready to find a real job again.... I'm ready for us to get out of this shit town. I'm ready for us to have nice things... I feel like a failure because it's so hard to physically work every day.. I want to buy my fiance every thing he wants and I want to buy Raine everything she could possibly need... but that's so hard to do when it hurts so bad to go into work... Only about 7 more weeks... and only working until my birthday on April 29th.. I'm ready for all this to be over... I feel so whiny right now.. I wish like everything Jonathan didn't work tomorrow... I just need him tonight... :(