Starting TWW. Anyone else?

I had a stillborn daughter at 38 weeks this passed Nov. This is my second month ttc. (Last month we only tried for like two weeks though). My last and only pregnancy, I got pregnant the first month of ttc so I hope it's quick this time again.

Yesterday I went out with my boyfriend went to watch a movie, me and him don't live together yet. but point is yesterday when he was dropping me off his like sleep over at my house witch the mom and dad lives. I said no,

his response was why is everyone deciding or making choices for you and their going to do the same with the baby, when I know that's not true. what he thinks is that my mom tells me not to sleep over. So he left all mad. and I felt in my heart that he went on and cheated on me...

What is wrong with me !?I'm sorry I'm always posting things that seem wrong with me but it's been 6 weeks since c section and my whole body aches like hurts and my head is killing me and I have been waking up with anxiety everyday and even when I take naps ... I'm tired and feel like blah !!! Someone else let me know this will pass please I can't feel like this I want to feel happy and good .

Wish more people on here got the progesterone shot 😩 feel like that shit fucked up my body 😐

My stomach is sooo heavy at this point I’m ready for these 4 weeks to fly by !! Idk why my stomach be so huge for my kids to come weighing 5/6 pounds at 39 weeks they be so tiny compared to most the babies in the nursery !!! Maybe I carry a lot of water idk but it makes no sense and I guarantee when I go for my sono next week when I turn 36 weeks they gone say she’s only 4 pounds right now !!!