I'm so angry sad emotional all of it I just want to scream and cry myself to sleep..but don't want to harm my baby just…

I'm so angry sad emotional all of it I just want to scream and cry myself to sleep..but don't want to harm my baby just sitting here thinking and I'm so unhappy with a lot of things I can not change on top of it I feel as when I get bigger in this pregnancy my man not going to want to touch or even look at me because I'm going to be the size of a cruise ship of as big as a gorilla 😢😢😢😢 I have no friends to speak to in person because none of them know I'm pregnant because I believe in the evil eye and I trust no one