got into a huge fight with my husband... I hsve no one else to talk to about it, I was hoping I can talk here...
the argument was over me telling him I was going to call my sister to pick me an the baby up so we can give him time to paint with his friend. he got all mad and said I was fucking stupid and just kept insulting me... it's what he wanted to do... paint the room with his friend I don't understand. .. he then follows me to my room and starts shouting and the baby was sleeping. I told him to stop yelling because the baby is here and how can he do that infront of her? after I told him to just leave and do what he always does which is smoke weed to be a completely different person he breaks his cologne on the floor and glass goes everywhere even on my baby's face and she gets wet from the cologne. . I was furious because God forbid she had gotten hurt.. he would be dead.. luckily I cleaned it off and I went to my parents room (my parents are away for a month in mexico) I locked the door and prys it open with a knife continues yelling at me and I threathened to call the cops so I go to grab the phone which is close to the baby's head on the bed and he end up hitting her by mistake and she starts crying. I punched him and threw his shit down the stairs and he slaps me really hard then pushes me and I hit my back on the corner of the dinning table... my back and head are killing me and my face was bright red from one side... I kicked him in the balls but I wish I could have really hurt him god knows I will kill for my baby girl but I have to be here for her. now I definitely left him for good. I want what's best for my baby girl. my mom went through it with my dad and I suffered alot... my family would tell me I barely spoke growing up and it was because seeing my mom get hit after she had an opinion made me scared to speak my mind.. to say a word thinking he would hurt me too.. I don't want my daughter to go through what I went through..

I need support right now I'm really hurt and scared for my babygirl... I hate the thought of her growing up without both her parents