had a dream last night I had twin boys. and both was sick...I'm of course only having one baby boy..but the dream was so real...my fear is having another baby born to an illness that affected my middle son.so I guess that's what is eating at me..but in the dream I remember one baby was sick more than the other and I remember bringing him out of his glass room to the middle part of the nicu to met his brother for the first time..my grandmother who has passed away was holding one baby and my father who has also passed away was holding the other baby in the dream..just a dream that is really weighing on my heart today..missing my father more than ever today..