I literally have such incredibly horrible anxiety about getting my cervix checked, my doctor…

I literally have such incredibly horrible anxiety about getting my cervix checked, my doctor prescribed me medicine so it'll make it easier for me to let her do what she needs to do. Ahhh. Anyone else have this issue?! I've had it done once.. Amidst contractions & what not.. I had things happen to me when I was younger that makes it tough for me to let people down in that area. Sounds crazy I know, I just can't help it.. Part of me feels like a failure for needing help by medication but a big part of me is just thankful she suggested it & hopefully I won't feel so dang stressed about it. The joys of the emotional scarring I never realized I would have...