Little rant- so my son only likes me to hold him. yes other people hold him but I'm a sahm and of…

Little rant-

so my son only likes me to hold him. yes other people hold him but I'm a sahm and of course he knows me from anyone. well he is 9 weeks old tomorrow and my husband has yet to bond with him. this morning I took my son to the flea mall with my mom and little sister to get pictures taken and instead of him coming out with us to just spend time together he stayed home and slept. which I get because he works Monday through Friday (marine on camp Lejeune) well I get home and he's laying on the couch, my house is not clean and my son is crying because he's hungry, and he watches me try to clean, eat my food which was the first thing I had ate all day and he doesn't even offer to help me clean. well I said I was bored because I'm stuck in the house all day during the week and wanted to do something as a family and he said no because we couldn't afford to do anything. which I was fine taking a walk around the park ya know. well I told him he could invite his friend over for dinner because I had to make spaghetti so the meat didn't go bad and he said he didn't want to have anyone over. so I said okay and me and Carson went to take a nap. well he comes in the room wakes me up and asks me if he can go to his friends at the barracks to get drunk. now mind you this is our first weekend home in 3 weeks and he never does anything with us as a family. of course I didn't want him to go because we have a baby and he NEVER helps me with him. He has never once gotta. up with him or anything I have to ask him to hold him for even a minute, and he compared me to his exes about making it a bigger deal than what it really is and I didn't even freak out. I had literally just woke up and if I said no then I'd be the biggest bitch on the earth but he knew I didn't want him to go and he still put me in that situation. it's been 4 hours since he left with the ONLY vehicle AND carseat and hasn't answered my phone calls or anything. we have been married almost a year, my son got shots yesterday so he's extremely bitchy and my husband doesn't give a fuck about anyone but his self. im so frustrated that I can't help but cry. I have tried talking to him numerous times and he changes for like 2 days but then goes back to the same way. I'm just so exhausted and its not fair that I don't get to not be a parent. he helped make this baby but he doesn't help take care of him. I feel so lonely.