I'm so very tired of faking a smile in front of everyone of pretending I'm ok that nothing is wrong…
I'm so very tired of faking a smile in front of everyone of pretending I'm ok that nothing is wrong that I'm happy when the truth is something els when every night I cry my eyes out and see how worthless I feel but can't let anyone know because all people do it say plz there is other people dealing with more painfull things than what you are experiencing. Nooo I wish I could be happy and not sad not haveing thoughts of hurting myself once again not have that anxiety that doesn't let me even breath. I'm going through all this by myself because no one in my family belives there is depression all they say is your looking for attention when all I want i s a hug and someone to tell me I'm here for you but no it's only me and my monsters inside of me people that haven been through this they can't understand us people going through this I been like this sence I was 7 yrs old never had a normal childhood after being sexually abused by three family members everything changed for me tell this day that hunts me and forever will can't live tgr normal life I freak about everything with my daughters and that's not all that has happened to me there is worse... I have no friends at all none what's so ever I have to go through this depression and high risk pregnancy by myself everything is getting so overwhelmed for me....
Jaqueline Freeland·
Мама четверых детей, беременна
you don't deserve to go through that. I was raped by someone close to me when I was younger and it does make it hard to trust anyone. especially when it comes to your children, have you talked to a councillor. I know it has helped me especially having a councillor that is female. I know I cannot say anything to make it better and you don't know me from a hole in the wall. just know there are other people out there facing the same issues and they have groups for it. I know they helped me. just give it a try, it may help you
💕Mary🌹Hernandez💕·
Многодетная мама (5 детей), беременна
I was going to my councillor but had to stop going I have no one to watch my three little ones I stoped taking my depression and anxity pills as will I'm going to start them again a week before my delivery and yes it's very hard trusting people once you been through it i get so anxious when I have to leave my childern and know there is man around them @smileyourprecious2016
Brittany Kelly·
В ожидании первенца
I know exactly how you feel girl I'm here if you ever need someone to talk to I'm sorry you went through that I will admit we have all been through a lot but fighting our demons alone isn't easy and it puts us Down, down so low you can't even see the bottom . you've been through a lot but just remember you have your children who look up to you they love you I know when you say putting on a fake smile is tiring and I understand that completely but when you are feeling low look at your babies and say to yourself I need to be here for them they deserve you and their daddy the only way they'll know how to make it through life with their head held high is with you and your husbands support I go through those days too and I told my fiance about it he never told me people out there have it worse he told me If you have thoughts like that when our son gets here I want you to look at him and say I made him , we made him , I held him for nine months and he deserves the absolute best which is you he needs his mommy and daddy anyways sorry for the long response I just know how you feel you can always message me though don't ever think you can't
Jaqueline Freeland·
Мама четверых детей, беременна
whatever you do. if you need to talk I'm here. if you ever start having suicide thoughts just think of your kids, that's what I do. I don't want ny kids to be left alone without me there to protect them
💕Mary🌹Hernandez💕·
Многодетная мама (5 детей), беременна
I have tires commenting suicide a year ago I couldn't take it anymore being alone through this and with no help is hard I'm everyone going through the same thing I took two bottles of pills I spend more than a month in the hospital in the ICU on my way there I had died for 7 min but like my husband has told me God brought you back to life for a reason that's our kids they need you plz don't ever leave us again never this has been very tough on my kids and husband i never remixed the damaged I had done to them but when your so deep in depression you just stop caring that's why I cry at high only when everyone is sleeping I don't want them upset during the day I play with them and do things with them. But it is hard not having someone to let it out I do talk to my husband but he gets so worried he dosent want to go in work just to take care of me but we need the money for our new baby and with all the bills we have to pay..but I will message you guys when I need someone to be there for me as will for you guys if you ever need anyone just message me I will be there as will thank you so much for talking to me makes me feel better know that I'm not the only one that feels this way @smileyourprecious2016 and @mommy.to.be.041016
Jaqueline Freeland·
Мама четверых детей, беременна
you don't have to thank me. I know what it feels like and I'd rather help than just stand aside.
Brittany Kelly·
В ожидании первенца
you're welcome hun I've been through that where you hide your tears from everyone cause you think its gonna cause some kind of problem but yes always message if you need someone to talk to don't ever be afraid to not message me girl we all need to get it out at some point . have you talked to your doctor ? if anything he could prescribe you something that'll take all those scary thoughts away they prescribed my mom xanax for anxiety and being manic depressive bipolar 3 while pregnant with all of us he might find a way to push away those thoughts if you don't wanna be prescribed something im just trying to help you girl. I know how it feels its okay though you are so strong ! @mary879