I'm hurting I'm breaking but no fully broken praying to God I've been wanting a family to call my own this whole time…

I'm hurting I'm breaking but no fully broken praying to God I've been wanting a family to call my own this whole time who doesn't understand me and honestly wants nothing to do with me God I's my father and besides my kids the only family I'll ever have it hurts to feel the truth about how people feel bout u and have u totally twisted ur just totally misunderstood I've grown up and healed and matured so differently their views and beliefs will never be even close to mine their just as blinded by pain of the past as I am idk why or what God thinks I'm going to do for this family but as far as I know I care more about them then they ever will about me my hands feel they are tied but with God that's not so he'll make away I have faith!!! the devil with all this negativity ain't gunna tear down ladies pray that God gives me strength I need it soo bad 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭