Hey ladies today has been a crazy day frfr and it's been so crazy it's even hard to explain smh😔.…

Hey ladies today has been a crazy day frfr and it's been so crazy it's even hard to explain smh😔. Lately I'm feeling somewhat some type away about me having to testify against my youngest brother in court tomorrow it's been hard on me especially being pregnant and all. I just feel ripped into two different directions because of the situation that got him in this situation in the first place. Plus this is a situations from my adopted mother who didn't raise us but yet did adopt us for money and my blood brother who did yes attack my mother after she kept provoking him that day knowing he has issues from the past with her and he doesn't respect her for that and it's just not a good situation to be in at the end of the day. When asked what I was going to say in court our mother I told her the truth of everything I saw that day and that's all I can do. To me she wants me to lie but in not going to do that cause that's not me what so eve and I really don't feel comfortable being 33wks pregnant and brought into this stupid drama between theses two and I'm the only one who got summoned to court to testify against my youngest brother for this current situation but the other ppl that was there when the situation what down they didn't get nothing saying they had to come and testify against him at all and ppl thinking this some kind of joke this is hurting me emotionally inside and out and no one is even considering my feelings about any of this but expect if I'm going to actually wake up and testify on my youngest brother at court and send him to jail smh😔😰.... Excuse my French u ladies but I so wise I didn't have to fxxx do this cause tomorrow I'm not going to be celebrating nothing like they will this case is something I have been a victim of two but instead of being hit in the face like my brother did my mom I was raped by my own cusion when I was 18yrs old and still to this day all that stupid man got was a therapy session and put in jail for 72hours until we soon go back to court for his trail but my point is to this story is I survived it and it has made me stronger I'm don't want pitty or anything because I'm not a victim I'm a survivor but it doesn't go away I have forgiven that person but this case as I told my mother brings up a lot of emotions for me and that's why I don't want to get involved and I also told her no one in this family had my back when her moms sister son thought it was ok to do what he did to me I felt alone and I blamed myself for it and that day will forever hunt me!! But now I have no choose because of this court room to stand up in front of a Judge tomorrow morning and testify against my brother for hitting her in the face and take up for her when I had no one but my friends and DCFS workers by my side through it all it took her two years for her to tell me that she wanted to blow his head off after they arrested him and he told her what he did to me but when I told her I got thrown to the ground and thrown against the wall but u know what that's why I love God the way I do because evidence doesn't lie and I'm so happy the detectives working on my case still till this day saying he will be locked up and they believed me from the day it happened back in 2010!😔 and that's why I refuse to let another woman or young girl go through what I been through or have seen others go through with domestic violence or abuse court situations and by me having a girl it's crazy frfr😔😭!