my baby shower is today and I want to be excited but I can't because none of my friends (or people…

my baby shower is today and I want to be excited but I can't because none of my friends (or people who I thought were my friends) will be there...I do even know who is going to be there other than a hand full of people. and of course my grandmother won't be there because she past away 6 years ago this month....it just hard cause she was there every step in my 1st pregnancy and now she's not here!