I hate it at times, but love it at others. My boys see their dad on weekends and it is a nice break for me, but I miss them like crazy. It gets easier as time passes to be able to comfortably share and Co parent your children. My daughter will not know her biological father, because all he wanted was an abortion and when I said no, told me he wants nothing else to do with her. I am grateful that my boys have their dad to grow up with, and it kind of upsets me that my daughter won't get to have the best of both worlds. Good luck momma!