My planned c section was today. But I had my son 2 weeks ago! Don't get me wrong I'm so incredibly happy and in love with him but a selfish part of me would be ok still being pregnant until today to meet him especially since he was out last baby and I had my tubes tied. Is this a normal feeling? I'm happy with my decision of tying my tubes cause I will

Be 30 in June and he is out third baby but a little

Part of me is sad. Please tell me I'm not too crazy lol