My mom lost my brother at this point in her pregnancy and I really just wanna see my son so I can know for sure that the umbilical cord isnt around his throat
Don't you wish they had mini ultrasound machines that we could use at home. Buy yourself a good stethoscope or a baby doppler so you can hear the heartbeat each day for some reassurance.
Don't stress yourself out hun. My first son was born at 39 weeks with his umbilical cord wrapped around his neck twice. I had no clue what was going on until his father told me. his face was blue and he wasn't breathing. But thanks to my amazing Dr he quickly removed the cord and within minutes my son was crying. He was perfectly healthy. I know its hard not to imagine the worst but I promise you everything will be ok :)