I need advice! So I swore I wouldn't get all omg in showing early on anyone, when I know in not. I…

I need advice! So I swore I wouldn't get all omg in showing early on anyone, when I know in not. I got antsy pantry with all three pregnancy, and I want to take this one day by day. Like I want to enjoy the beginning, and do everything I didn't get to do. However I feel myself getting antsy pantsy AGIAN! Ah! I guess I just want to show, and feel baby. But because this baby is my last I want to take it day by day, and enjoy our family of five until baby comes! Like I ain't hopping to buying clothes and all, but I want to just I don't know! I don't want to rush nothing, because that means my kids are growing up to fast. I want to enjoy my kids, and enjoy my last pregnancy. But I'm seems anxiety gets the best of me! Urgh! Sorry guys! You gals are hair so beautiful with your bumps, that I can't wait! Y'all are just to beautiful, not Ina gay manner promise! Not putting gays down either. Just didn't wanna creep y'all out. Lol