I hate trying to figure out how I'm going to go back to work. do I gamble and work about 10 miles away from my house to…

I hate trying to figure out how I'm going to go back to work. do I gamble and work about 10 miles away from my house to have my bf watch sadie while having to listen to him complain that she cried at night or how he has to be at work at a certain time or do I drive 45 min to let my mom watch her reliably over nights. unfortunately I think I go with my mom! so then I'll half live here with my bf and half with my mom and dad:/