I swear Im cursed. Im not even kidding. Every time I proclaim its going to be a great day, every…

I swear Im cursed. Im not even kidding. Every time I proclaim its going to be a great day, every time I strive for happiness or peace, something gets in the way and says, 'not today!' Im in a very dark place in my mind this morning now...and the one (s) who should care the most are the ones who took me there...I just may need to seek a counselor today.