I know I will be extremely miserable when I become pregnant but just knowing I have a little human…

I know I will be extremely miserable when I become pregnant but just knowing I have a little human growing inside me from the man I love will make me really happy and I know my time will come but I want it to happen more than anything. My fiance and I both want this and I swear this month was our month because we tried so hard but nothing happened again. I will keep my head up and keep trying but it scares me and I'm just so tired of waiting and seeing a negative every month. 😫