I feel like crying. all of our tax return was spent literally on bills and tickets. which isn't a…

I feel like crying. all of our tax return was spent literally on bills and tickets. which isn't a bad thing, it wasn't blown on stupid stuff. but with us trying to get a house that would have contributed to a down payment. my husband is saying everything is fine but I have yet been able to truly save what money I do make for a house because I have to keep cleaning up his damn messes! sorry, really needed to vent