Please don't judge me but I feel like my relationship is rocky right now with him not holding my…

I'd say talk to your daughters dad, and tell him what happened and explain why it did. its good to be honest (I'm NOT judging you) maybe he feels the same way and you'll never know unless you talk to him :) good luck!! sending prayers your way!!!

Thank you.. I will try

you're welcome! its best to be happy, than to force a relationship! I wish you the best my dear! @sophya_mommy02

Yea it's hard I feel like Ima get my heart broken again if we do and he try's to take my daughter from me..

relationships have a natural ebb and flow. speaking from experience, sometimes things don't seem as great as they should be, but not necessarily because the partner isn't all in, but because you may be losing some interest... maybe even bored with the relationship. boredom is easy to fix, even without the need for a fling (which is totally thrilling and exciting, like seriously! dont get me wrong lol). sometimes it's as easy as talking about it, others it's romantic gestures that show you care, sometimes it's changing a boring routine you've fallen into. have you tried cuddling him, or grabbing his hand instead of waiting for him? .... of course if you're just 100% over him, then of course that changes things. I personally wouldn't admit to kissing your friend, because he'd never trust you with them, or in general, again (if you did work this out)...

so long, I'm sorry lmao!!

It's ok

It's normal. All relationships go through peaks and valleys. You need to tell what you need to keep trust and talk about all of this! Open communication is key! He doesn't know how to fix anything if you don't tell him. :)