Hey ladies is it bad to say that I think I'm the only one not going to happy about my baby shower…

Hey ladies is it bad to say that I think I'm the only one not going to happy about my baby shower and who throwing it?? Ok I'm adopted and I grow up in the system all my life and I don't look at this woman that adopted me as my mother because she never treated me right or my brothers who I one my oldest got so sick of being treated he refuses to come visit me because he don't want nothing to do with her and she got my youngest brother locked up for something she provoked and now idk I'm not in a happy mood anymore I'm now 30wks and 4days pregnant and I am not happy about my baby shower coming up in April because I have find out things at the last minute no one asked me what I thought about it or where I feel comfortable having it I found out at the last minute and she acting like its her baby shower like she's the one having the child or something all she keeps telling me is since I'm throwing it it's about me and what I want to eat and everyone has feelings I told her I'm will aware that everyone has feelings but no one ever stops and says to the one having the baby how are u feeling because maybe my babies health or my health don't matter of bringing her in this world with family that will be there for her now that bothers me that I'm concerned about bringing my child into this world around this family that have really caused a great deal of pain and I miss my blood brothers a lot I wise they could come but I think I don't want to have one I think I'm just going to get her everything she needs because I hate feeling lied and ppl that never cared acting like they phony care because now I'm having a baby no that's not right because every since I have been pregnant I feel alone and the only support person that I feel I can count on is God frfr yeah I have amazing friends but to me sometimes especially while pregnant u do what ur family around and treat u with respect. But I guess not😔😭 #feeling depressed & just so overwhelmed. May I please get some advice on this post please and thank u??