Instead of sleeping which I need to be doing, I'm picturing the day I go into labor with Haiden and…

Instead of sleeping which I need to be doing, I'm picturing the day I go into labor with Haiden and I'm wondering if I could have him natural, if I could handle that again. I'm sure I could, but do I want too is the real question I guess. Well I guess I have 17 wks at the most to figure that out. Because in all honestly I'm more scared of the epidural than the pain of labor, I've done it before so what's another time. It also depends on me and the baby at that time if I'm able too.