Trigger. Lost baby

Went in for my 20 week check up and found out our son had passed away. Nothing was wrong, my pregnancy has been going great. I'm so numb right now. I'll he delivering him later this week. I don't want to do this. I don't want to do this. Not before Christmas. How am I'm going to tell my kids?? My dear sweet baby boy. Why did this happen?

Been thinking a lot how do I tell my family I dont want them at the birth of my daughter they all assume they will be there and havent had the energy to argue with them about it but I really just want me and my babys father. wish my family would understand that.

Question: If I go to the hospital an tell them I haven't been feeling my baby move will they do a ultrasound?

I’m so depressed. Went to get my eyebrows waxed I tell her leave them as thick as you can and this women ruined my life. I look like I belong in the 90s will they every be the same? Lol how can I grow them fast I’ve been applying castor oil.

Well social services is trying to take the girls because one of them tested positive for opiates, which could be a different number of things. And only one had anything in her system, the other baby and me didn't test positive for anything. Can someone please tell me how this is possible? My doctor also won't continue care if you test positive for anything. I am so upset, I have to go to the nursery just to see or feed them 😢