I honestly can't deal with disappointment anymore, if he doesn't show up then idk what's going to…

I honestly can't deal with disappointment anymore, if he doesn't show up then idk what's going to happen. I just want my daughter here already so I'll have someone that's loves and need me like I do them. I'm tired of being the one who's always crying and feeling lonely while you cancel dates and don't text back and hang with your boys😓