After always going back and forth to the hospital I really feel like after this one no more babies. I have gotten to the…

After always going back and forth to the hospital I really feel like after this one no more babies. I have gotten to the point where when I get to the hospital and find out what's wrong I want to just walk out. I start freaking out and shaking so bad. It's even worse because I'm always by myself. I just wish my husband was back from deployment because I feel alone. We did this together and now I'm dealing with all these issues by myself. Even though he talks to me the whole time while there it just isn't the same at all. 😟😳😭😔