I swear my child makes me feel like a bad mother...children are suppose to look into their mother…

I swear my child makes me feel like a bad mother...children are suppose to look into their mother eyes and find comfort...my baby finds comfort in everybody else..when they're crying,mothers are there to wipe the tears away..mine acts like he doesnt want to b around me..im not going to give up but he makes me want to..my child treats my mom sooooo much better..i am so close to having a breakdown..