I'm really trying to like deal with living with my dumb ass mama but idk if I could keep doing it.…

I'm really trying to like deal with living with my dumb ass mama but idk if I could keep doing it. If nothing don't benefit her then it don't matter the fact that I was outta work so long and she ain't offer to help me with anything but when I have a give it's ridiculous to me I really hope that I don't be a parent like her she been fuckin over me since I was a child I refuse to be the way she is to me too my baby . Mommy promises I will never make u feel how I feel now or how I've been feeling since I could understand anything in my life I will hate myself if I do