So it didn't really bother me until today. The realization set in that I'm all alone in having this baby. I mean I have ppl here but it's not the same as having your child's other maker with you through this. I'm scared right now, but why? It could be the fact I have been feeling cramps 10seconds long n about 30 mins apart, not to mention the back pain that shoots through me.
Yesterday I went out with my boyfriend went to watch a movie, me and him don't live together yet. but point is yesterday when he was dropping me off his like sleep over at my house witch the mom and dad lives. I said no,
his response was why is everyone deciding or making choices for you and their going to do the same with the baby, when I know that's not true. what he thinks is that my mom tells me not to sleep over. So he left all mad. and I felt in my heart that he went on and cheated on me...
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What's for dinner tonight? I'm hungry, let me live vicariously through you all.
Guess I'm bout to eat some cereal since my child wouldn't let me finish my spaghetti.! But anyways if i don't have sex through out my pregnancy will i have a hard labor???
I guess sharing my personal info on here means having it used against me in a personal disagreement yes I was raped and no you have no right to use my daughter against me as a personal jab
Birth Plan Rant
I used to be all about getting an epidural, but after research and thinking about it more I want to have an unmedicated birth (this is my first baby). What annoys me is when I say that I'm going to TRY my hardest to have a natural and unmedicated birth people always feel the need to say that I'm crazy or that I'm going to change my mind when I get in that position. Or that epidurals are the best. I do realize that plans change, but why can't people be supportive and encouraging?