trying to keep myself occupied with packing the hospital bags even though I feel horrible.... worst…

trying to keep myself occupied with packing the hospital bags even though I feel horrible.... worst part is my boyfriend isnt even here he is across the street at his friends house who I hate because they are 2 sisters that he had a crush on back in the day and asked the oldest sister to be be his valentine last year..... so he is at a bon fire while I feel like shit.... he has been gone the whole pregnancy because he was finishing college and hasnt even been here a week... this is our time to be together and get ready for our son.... really upset right now