Warning, this is a little long!
So, plain and simple, I'm fat. I am not curvey cute, or anything. My body is just awkward and fat. I've got thick thighs and calves, a flabby stomach covered in scars and stretch marks, wide hips, big arms, back fat, and multiple chins. But my fiancé still insists I'm not fat. I know he just says it because he has to or he'd piss me off, but I still feel like I'm not sexy enough for him. I sorry. We've had some issues before with thinner prettier girls, just once or twice, but we moved past it. Though it permanently damaged my self esteem. Even more than it already was. But here's the thing, for Valentine's Day, a friend of mine (a girl) is going to help me dress up in sexy lingerie and what not, and take some sexy pictures for my fiancé. I'm so nervous because I hate my body so much and not only is she going to see it, but they'll be in picture form forever and I'm afraid I'll see them and tear them up before he even gets them. >_<
Sorry, I just needed to rant about it for a few!