We live with my in-laws now. I've been really ill. Still no diagnosis or reason for my sickness. I also now have severe postpartum depression. Desmond won't latch anymore because he's used the bottle too much while I've been at the doctors. I woke up in extreme pain yesterday. Zack was in class and I needed somebody to hold Desmond while I was sick in the bathroom. I gave him to my father in law. The idiot gave Desmond SALSA while I was in the bathroom throwing up. I'm dying in this hell.