
So I've been MIA for a little while. Life has been hectic but I wouldn't change it for anything. I am currently working full time at a nursing home/rehab. Bentley is almost ONE 😱 and I'm slacking in the birthday party planning department 😂 Currently Bentley is on a CPAP and still has to take all of his oral meds as well as his inhalers and an antibiotic. We just discovered that Mr. B has an ear infection on top of fluid on both ear drums 😭 I think I'm being more of a baby over it than he is. He hasn't made a peep about his ears other than when we went to the ENT.
Picture is from this morning before church 😍
Yesterday I went out with my boyfriend went to watch a movie, me and him don't live together yet. but point is yesterday when he was dropping me off his like sleep over at my house witch the mom and dad lives. I said no,
his response was why is everyone deciding or making choices for you and their going to do the same with the baby, when I know that's not true. what he thinks is that my mom tells me not to sleep over. So he left all mad. and I felt in my heart that he went on and cheated on me...
I am so upset! Went for my 33 week checkup and they told me I have 2 stds! I have not been with anyone other than my sons dad and he says he has been faithful to me I have been crying all morning!
so I need some advice, I'm currently pregnant from a man who is married with a ten year old. he says he married her because they were young and how he was raised that if you get someone pregnant you have to buckle down and be a man. now that I'm pregnant he says my child has to be a secret. no family from his side and none from myself because I have no family. I feel like my child is coming into this world like a burden from him. and I have no respect from my kids father . even worse he sleep...
I'm so scared I'm going to go through PPD, I been so sad lately and it's mainly about my 18 month old. I feel like I'm failing him as a mom because he rather go to my mom than me and he don't like to come to me as much since the baby been born. Now he has his moments where he get mad and hit at the baby , of course I pop him and tell him that's a no no and not to fight his brother. I feel like I'm failing as a mom to him sometimes.