after last night i just feel sick and physical pain. he dont realize just what he has showed me and…

after last night i just feel sick and physical pain. he dont realize just what he has showed me and now im questioning everything. wake up this morning and hes still gone after walkin out last night. how could you tell someone you love them, get married, have a child thatll be here in june and just go mia completely? and sit there while your wife is balling her eyes out and still make plans with a friend to come get you instead of staying and calming her down?? what have i done so wrong, what have i said, what can i do to get that look back that you had before the baby?? i dont understand and just feel that i cant fight anymore. im tired of fighting for your attention and your time...i just dont understand