i keep bitchin about back pain and bein sick with my daughter...but today i actually took it all as…

i keep bitchin about back pain and bein sick with my daughter...but today i actually took it all as a gift. i never got this far with my twins or my other baby back in march. i take this one as a true miracle after goin thru beginning scans and tests for the cancer that was starting and suddenly without explanation went away completely just before fonding out about this baby. im beginning to love the pain, sickness, strange body changes, and craziness because its an everyday reminder of my miracle that i will always love and will one day share the story of how she saved me and of her brother, sister, and other sibling and show her all the love she deserves and all that i couldnt show them