Sorry in advance, this post is long and sappy. Does anyone else just go sit in their babies nursery? I am filled with so…

Sorry in advance, this post is long and sappy. Does anyone else just go sit in their babies nursery? I am filled with so much joy and happiness whenever I come in here and see her crib, and rocker and her clothes... and then I feel her wiggle around in my belly and I almost burst out in tears from happiness.... I never in my life experienced a love like this, and she isn't even here yet.. I've been such a horrible, bad person most of my late teenage years and into my adult life. I've used people, hurt people, done horrible horrible things. I've been addicted to drugs and hanging around with the wrong groups of people.. I ruined high school for myself and threw away my chances at amazing scholarships to go get fucked up out of my mind... I had more regrets than I can even explain. but now? I don't regret any of those horrible mistakes. They led me here. To a wonderful man who treats me right. and now we are growing our family. My fiance and my daughter have saved me in ways I didn't know were possible... Without them I'm worried I would be living on the streets doing only God knows what to continue snorting pills.. I'm not proud of who I was. But I am so proud of how far I've came and who I've become. and I will only continue to better myself for this perfect, tiny little baby girl that I have been blessed with. Raine Lena Broadway, mommy already loves you more than you will ever be able to comprehend. I would go to the ends of the earth for you if you asked me. ❤