I need to vent... So I'm doing most of my laboring at home due to the fact I stress in hospitals so…

I need to vent... So I'm doing most of my laboring at home due to the fact I stress in hospitals so once I start getting close I'm going to leave for the hospital. I was just informed tonight by my fiancé that he doesn't know if he's going to come up to my house while I'm laboring because he won't have any way there. His car broke down in another state a while back and has been stuck there for several months because its literally done for and he has no way to get it back. So he decided to just now tell me while I'm 39 weeks pregnant that I'll be pretty much be doing the first part of this birthing thing without him.. Then he asks if I can come get him while I'm in labor. He lives an hour away. I'm not driving while I'm in freaking labor... I feel like I'm just alone in this.... Why do women have to go through all this hard shit and the men can do and choose whatever they want!? 😓 I feel sick so my stomach...