I was the same way. We tried to get pregnant for over a year and then had a miscarriage in June...to help myself cope, I told myself that baby was probably sick and if it would have kept growing, it could have gotten more sick or made me very sick and it end up living a hard life. It was what got me through. Found out I was pregnant again in October and am currently 20 weeks with my rainbow. I know it's tough. I've dealt with it. But it's not your fault. @soon2bmomof3 is right, sometimes things aren't in our control and it's really scary most of the time but trust your body and know that it'll happen. Here for you girlie.

Something's are out of your control! It doesn't make you worthless! Just try to take it lightly.