MIGHT BE TMI AND EXCUSE MY LANGUAGE IN ADVANCE. so last night my boyfriend and I tried to have sex.…

MIGHT BE TMI AND EXCUSE MY LANGUAGE IN ADVANCE.

so last night my boyfriend and I tried to have sex. twice. I know right, how do you 'try' to have sex? well I thought everything was good the first time but he went soft out of nowhere.. my hormones instantly decided this was my fault and that he is not attracted to me. so I cried my heart out and he apologized and reassured me its not me. so we 'tried' a second time and he went soft again.. so I cried again and he finally says I'm sorry baby its just all I can think about is the baby I don't want to hurt her. thing is I'm 34 weeks now, we've gone over this, he physically can't hurt the baby. I've told him a million time. we've managed to have wonderful sex time and time again after I've reassured him he can't actually hurt her. like I said though I'm 34 weeks now, I'm huge now, I'm can't just turn over to a new position so easily anymore and I know it. I don't think he went soft because he was scared for the baby, she's fine. I think he went soft because I'm huge from every angle now, I tried being sexy last night.. I actually put in some effort and it backfired. my self esteem is at an all time low and I feel like he's no longer sexually attracted to me.. what the fuck do I do? I want that connection and I feel like from this point on in my pregnancy its nearly impossible. I already have my doubts as far as postpartum Im scared he won't find me attractive after birth because I may be smaller but I'll be alot more stretched out everywhere.. I just want to feel sexy again without the extra effort. it's so hard.