Had horrible scary dreams about BabyGirl last night. Tossed and turned so much and now 6:30am laying in bed light on…

Had horrible scary dreams about BabyGirl last night. Tossed and turned so much and now 6:30am laying in bed light on scanning my phone trying not to cry about everything. I have sleep paralysis and I've been so scared of it happening this pregnancy and as I get farther along it gets worse. It sounds so awful but I almost wish she was healthy enough and everything would be okay if she were born now cause I'm so scared something is going to happen in womb before she is born. I am feeling so overwhelmed that my body is going to hurt her.