Okay, so, I am kind of annoyed and need to vent for a minute. I haven't worked since July of last…
Okay, so, I am kind of annoyed and need to vent for a minute. I haven't worked since July of last year because I cut ties with the three major companies I was writing for; it was a mutual agreement. Regardless, I have been relying on my husband and a measley $300 child support check once a month for cash, which I end up using towards bills anyway, or groceries. Well, I'm broker than broke right now...and I asked my husband if he had a few dollars on him for gas so I can pick ny daughter up and take her to her doctors appointment today at 10. He flips out on me and says he has no cash. Tells me to use the gift card his boss gave him for Christmas, and I said no, Im not touching your giftcard. That's YOURS. He should use that on something he wants or needs. Well, then he takes a cheap shot at me and tells me to 'ask my mom to send me money then", knowing as of a couple weeks ago, my mother and I no longer talk and its very painful for me. Why would he want to make me feel that way?? Its uncomfortable enough for me to go to him and ask him for money, EVER, because Im the kind of girl that really likes having her own money...so not having any has been hard. I think he felt bad that he couldnt give me the money and thats why he acted like he did, but he expressed himself in a really hurtful kinda way that left me feeling uncomfortable, stupid for asking, and also, sad because he had to make a comment about my mom. I guess I just needed to get that off my chest. Maybe its petty, but it was hurtful. Oh and PS, he doesn't want me working anyway.
excitedmom37·
I understand how you feel. It is hurtful to say when you aren't speaking to her. He probably felt bad he didn't have it to give to you. Praying you feel better and things get better. @sarahemccormick
shian·
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I understand, but Girl God can move mountains. He just felt bad probably for not having it. Its hard for a man to say I don't have it or I'm broke. it is for my husband. I'm in the same boat hubby the only one working. I don't like asking him for money for stuff. it will get better. trust me
missing74user·
@excitedmom36, Yeah I think thats what it was. He doesn't always have the easiest time expressing himself, especially when he is upset about something. Thank you for the prayer xo @shy444 Yes, I agree - God can move mountains. He had money but its in the bank on his debit card, which he needs to have with him for work, but had no cash. Oh, I know its hard for him to tell me he didn't have it. And I'm glad Im not the only obe that feels weird about asking their husband for money. I just hate the feeling....I have never been the kind of person who had anything in life handed to them. Thats never been me. I dont like that feeling. So, this is all new for me, having to rely on him for everything. I hate not being able to contribute. 😳 I feel useless sometimes. I mean, in reality, I know I take care of the house, cooking, cleaning, the kids and etc, which is not useless - but monetarily, Im useless. Its hard.
Yaro·
I know how you feel. I haven't worked since I found out I was pregnant because I had terrible morning sickness, and by the time I got better no one wanted to hire me because I was pregnant so I've been depending on my boyfriend for everything. He's been paying all my bills and has been very supportive, but I'm not used to having to depend on someone so much, and it gets to you sometimes. We've also had arguments in which he brings up the money thing and how he's the only one making money while I just sit at home doing nothing, and it's hurtful because I wish that I could be working and making my own money to help him.
But I guess it is what it is. I can't wait until I have my baby girl so I can go back to work and be able to take care of myself again and my baby.