I am a little bit upset because I really wanted to breast feed my baby to have that bond but just…

I am a little bit upset because I really wanted to breast feed my baby to have that bond but just found out today at my Neurologist appt my ob told me ask my ob would I be able to breast feed while I'm my epilepsy medication and they checked it out called me back and I was told I can't because of the dosage of my epilepsy medication I would pass it through my breast milk to my baby so I have to bottle feed its the safest route for my lil bindis of joy😭