really been missing baby #1 lately. Seems like the further along I get, the more heart broken I…

really been missing baby #1 lately. Seems like the further along I get, the more heart broken I become. I'm watching all my friends I was pregnant with the first time post pictures of their little ones and their milestones and this sense of jealously and emptiness just overwhelms me. I thought that I'd feel,not necessarily better, but able to cope since becoming pregnant again. I just never gets easier. There are so many things I miss about my first pregnancy, I almost feel guilty for feeling this way. Don't get me wrong, I feel blessed to have a second chance. I just can't help but wonder what he'd have been like....