im just here stuck thinking and thinking. i hate feeling lik this. i need him but his just not worth…

im just here stuck thinking and thinking. i hate feeling lik this. i need him but his just not worth my time.i love him but he just doesn't wanna be a father.i want him in the delivery room holding my hand and telling me he loves me but i guess thts not gunna happen,asept in my dreams.😢😞💔