So this is gonna sound horrible and I'm not sure exactly why I feel this way but.....I do not want…

So this is gonna sound horrible and I'm not sure exactly why I feel this way but.....I do not want to share my baby. I mean at all. 😕 I don't want family piled in the delivery room after baby is born. I don't want anyone else to hold him. I want him to myself. I know that's horrible and Idk why I'd ever be so selfish but it's how I feel. 😦