Yesterday I went out with my boyfriend went to watch a movie, me and him don't live together yet. but point is yesterday when he was dropping me off his like sleep over at my house witch the mom and dad lives. I said no, his response was why is everyone deciding or making choices for you and their going to do the same with the baby, when I know that's not true. what he thinks is that my mom tells me not to sleep over. So he left all mad. and I felt in my heart that he went on and cheated on me and did something else with an other girl.... and it's 10:51 am now and he hasn't texted me at all. and after he dropped me off I texted him saying what I felt and nothing. I don't know if I'm over reacting or what or what should i do. do i wait until he text me?
I feel like all you girls on here hate me 😔 so I'm gonna delete this app ✌
I can't take it anymore! Haley (yes my 1mth old and no I wasn't able to go through this "joy" of nursing my older daughter, Molly) has been screaming non stop for 6hrs! All she wants to do is eat and I can't have her attached to me all day, everyday! She has wanted to eat every hr on the hr for the past 3hrs! I put her in her room so I don't scream at her but I just can't take it!
Really long post but need to get this off my chest! SORRY 🤦🏻 ♀ So after a long talk me and my OH have decided this is our one and only baby. I've never really told the full story of my labour as I hadn't fully come to terms with it and when I did open up about certain things people made me feel guilty. So after a rough last month of pregnancy I had to be induced due to low fluid. I was in hospital being induced for 3 days before they could pop my waters. I spent 11 hours on the drip with just gas and air and was so proud of myself and was having fun and enjoying my experience. The drip was on full for hours at this point. The doctors came to examine me and he told me I hadn't progressed at all. He also told me if I didn't progress within 4 hours I would be sent for an emergency C section. At that point my heart sank. I lost all confidence and didn't even feel like a real woman. This truly broke my heart. I mean how could I when my body wasn't doing what it's naturally supposed to do? That's when I started to feel every contraction. I gave up on myself totally and allowed them to give me the epidural. And as it continued I already knew what the outcome would be and sure enough when the time came I still hadn't progressed. They read all the risks to me and had me sign the papers and I was taken down alone. I remember being wheeled into theatre and being put on a metal table and feeling like a slab of meat. I remember being surrounded by loads of people I didn't know and the lights being so bright. They kept pumping the drugs into me but each time I could still feel everything. They brought my OH in and within 15 seconds they took him out. Scared and alone they told me they didn't have a choice but to put me to sleep. I was terrified and alone. I still remember them putting the mask over my face. I still remember not being able breath properly and starting to panic. They had pumped so many drugs into me I don't remember first holding my baby. I don't remember the first few hours of her life. Not only that but they couldn't wake me. For hours and hours I didn't come round. My OH was waiting outside theatre and could hear them panicking. He could hear them trying to wake me and hear them saying that I was unresponsive. He was scared of loosing me too. I also lost alot of blood and came home severely anaemic. So much so I'm still on iron tablets now. Thats why for so long I hated my scar. Because everytime I looked at it I was reminded of how it all could of been different. It reminded me of all the trauma I went through. So please girls when something affects someone take a moment to think why. My birth completely changed me and my partner. I still get flashbacks and I'm still dealing with the trauma but I'm finally healing. But after all we went through I'm just happy to enjoy my little girl and my family. I don't want to risk leaving them both behind and don't think I could put myself through it again... Thank you to anyone that listened I've kept it in for so long and it's time I finally get it off my chest ❤ ❤ ❤
