so today I woke up in a daze one moment I felt like it was my first breathe again and the next I…

so today I woke up in a daze one moment I felt like it was my first breathe again and the next I felt like the weight of the world was sitting on me, I'm not to sure If its hormones or not but my boyfriend seems like he doesn't want to be around me we go thru things and he shuts down but these moment I want him close to love me to hold me to remember what I'm going threw in a not being selfish kind of way but I'm so madly in love with the thought of my little family...it was he that said we have other family then we have our family..... #14weeks2days long journey ahead